Reality #2:The little pebble rolling downhill, gathering, gathering

I shall go back to Saturday, since the days nowadays are increasingly uninteresting for me.

Saturday
I went out shopping with my mum at Taka, Wisma Atria(?) and 313. I feel a little guilty for making my mum buy books for me-since I've found out that many considerate, loving and fillial people save up to buy books for themselves. However, I was being a fangirl and wanted to buy Harry Potter Film Wizardry,which I saw at Kinokuniya. I made myself feel a little better by asking for it as a Christmas present, but I still feel selfish.

We also bought nursery rhymes CDs for my baby cousin in China , who's less than one month old.My mum, who adores Peter Rabbit, really wanted to get an audio Peter Rabbit CD, so I asked one of the staff members and they scanned through the Peter Rabbit shelf, and told us the CDs were out of stock. Obviously, my mum wanted to buy the Peter Rabbit CD very much, so she continued searching and I tried to help her. Being smarter than me, she found it, stuffed deep into the shelf. Well, at least I tried to make her happier.

We also bought other phonetics books and CDs. We shopped around for other things, such as presents for my relatives. Lastly, we bought My Fair Lady because we were both interested in the show.

After being deprived losing out shopping time, this shopping trip, which was quite fruitful, was like a drop of water given to someone who hasn't drunk anything for a day. I'm not saying "a person who hasn't drunk for three days', because my need for going out isn't really that desperate. I must inhibite(is this the word?) my tendency to immerse myself into all that is melodramatic.

Sunday
I mostly stayed at home, except to go out and meet Divya and Jia Min. We exceeded our time limit (to be frank, the time limit I had pushed for) by one hour, because we were so intent on gossiping. It was mainly my fault, because I started whining about my training and that led to many discussions about many people, many activities, many interests etc.

Monday
What can I say? I had training. I felt faint for no reason, possibly because I'm not strong and skipped half of the training. Training was very, very slack. Even I agree with this. Nevertheless, my feet felt a little tired.

I lunched at Pizza Hut, came back, and used the com. C'est fini.

Despite the simple and slightly average state I am in now, I know that come tomorrow, thie pace with gather and things are going to become more exciting, both, I believe, in good and bad ways, just like the little pebble rolling down the hill, triggering other bigger stones. Most people prefer to talk about The Snowball Effect but I prefer the little pebbles.

Tomorrow, we would be getting back  the LA and something else papers. A while ago, I was brooding on my comprehension and lit response, but right now, I feel numb. It is possible that I am to tired to think, or prehaps too lazy, but I think it is most likely that I am just going to let fate decide things. It is rare for me to have such a peaceful state of mind. I don't mean that I am staring into blank air, having a blank mind. My mind is in here and now, but I am able to distance myself slightly, just slightly, from outward  and inward disturbances so I do not dwell on things that would ruffle this serenity.

I think I might have a chance of becoming a Healer, if I were in the Harry Potter Universe. Alternatively, I can become the Muggle equivalent, which amounts to someone working in one sub-branch in Medicine, probably a Doctor or a Psychiatrist. As Gandalf (or Bilbo or J. R.R. Tolkien) say:

Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can, ... 
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.And whither then? I cannot say.




We never know.